Happiness and Sadness

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Sadness gripped my inner being

My breathe of life abandoned me

My smile, my laughter, my spirit fled elsewhere

Shattered pieces of my heart

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Surrounded me.

I was utterly alone

Grieving, Crying

A part of me was dying.

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For the first week after I had walked away from the one I fell in love with I was an utterly complete mess. I locked myself in my room and cried for days. I have no recollection of sunlight during those days. Just darkness. Nor do I remember any sounds but my weeping. I apologize if this sounds downright depressing but it was. However, there is a reason I am admitting to the pain that I have been suffering, so please continue reading.

There is a light at the end of this dark tunnel. I promise. I’m already there. This is just a mere recollection.

Before I left, I made a promise to take my family, friends and anyone interested along on my journey. “Promise to keep us updated on your travels because we will live vicariously through you,” they said. A promise was made- to provide an interpretation of the world through my eyes and personal experiences.

We are all aware that happiness and sadness go hand in hand like two inseparable souls made of two opposing forces. However, have we ever stopped to evaluate the impact that these two conflicting emotions have on our perspective on life?

This is my futile attempt to convey their impact.

After the first week of my heartbreak, I gathered enough courage and strength to sweep the pieces of my shattered heart into my hand, fled Kathmandu and headed for the lush and tropical surroundings of Chitwan. I was still consumed by almost debilitating heartache during my 3 week stay in the jungle, however, magical moments managed to materialize. Since these moments, these precious memories  happened when my heart was consumed by deep sadness, I appreciated these moments more deeply and they became a million more times blissful, magical, beautiful and unforgettable.

This the reason as to why  I had unabashedly admitted to the pain I endured, so you too, can fully appreciate and feel the full intensity of the moments I will recollect in my next journal entries.

Moments that slowly rejuvenated me

Brought back my breath of life.

And returned my laughter.

Moments entwined within eachother

And helped to heal my heart.

Enjoy!